Someone sent a message to me

I have been separated from my husband for over a year now. There were times when I actually had hope that we were finally going to work the differences through and have that dream marriage that I thought we both wanted. Even though he filed for divorce during one of the not so hopeful times he said that we didn't have to follow through if we could work it out.

We are not even speaking now. As hard as it is to admit, there comes a time when you just have to accept the fact that something just isn't going to work. If this is the way it must be then there really isn't much sense in fighting it any more.

I have been going through the day to day as best I can. I have been trying to find some measure of letting go quietly. We had connections left in the game I love to play online and I was visiting his blog daily to keep up with his posts. I have broken the connections and stopped reading anything he posted. As much as it hurts I know that this is what I have to do.

I have been hurting physically and emotionally for a while now. Between the break up of the relationship that meant so much to me and the fibromyalgia. I don't see any relief from either in sight. This is no way to try and live!

Someone sent a message to me today that I never expected. The first thing I did was say thank you for the words when I really needed to hear them. The message simply said: "Don't let the sadness of your past and fear of the future ruin the happiness of your present."

I copied those words onto an index card and have it in front of me. I know that I have been living in the sadness of the past and fear of the future. It is very sad that the marriage is over and I am afraid of going on alone. I keep trying to hold on to the good of the past. I don't want to let go of the thought that we could have those good days ahead. The truth be known that even if I did get a few of those good days again they would never last very long and I would be right back where I am today.

Again I say to myself: "Don't let the sadness of your past and fear of the future ruin the happiness of your present."

I am going to keep those words close to my heart. Maybe they will be timely words to someone who reads this post and it helps them like it is helping me.