Labor Day weekend

This is the "official" end of summer and a three day weekend. It's been an interesting summer but not one that I will want to remember. I had my ups and downs to say the least. I had my good moments and my not so good moments. I guess you have to take the bad with the good. Either way, you can't change what has been done.
Soon the rain will start again and I am not looking forward to that. At least my allergies won't be so bad. I guess that's a good thing. It just makes it hard to drive at night when it seems that your headlights aren't working. I don't go out at night very often anyway. Let's hope there are no emergency runs for something I just ran out of or forgot to get during the day.
I want to move the furniture around again so the couch isn't in front of the heater. That means moving my computer desk and I don't know if it's going to survive another move. The poor thing is on it's last leg. I have had it a long time and it's been well used and abused. That is going to have to be a task for another day. Just not up to it right now.
In the middle of a fibro crash. I think I can do anything until I get up and try to get going. Then I realize that my get up and go got up and went. I quietly sit back down and try to keep my mind occupied doing things that don't take any energy to do. I have been able to keep up with taking care of the cats, cooking my meals and most of the housework but that's about it for me.
Lately I have been playing games on Facebook. Even that gets old after a while. I chat on message boards but with all the trolls there it's hard to have a conversation with anyone. We talk about religion and that can prove to be very interesting to me. You get to chat with people from different parts of the country that you would never get to talk to in real life. It's nice to get to read about other people's thoughts and beliefs. I share what I believe and why I believe it without trying to convert anyone to my way of thinking. I just want to do away with mistaken stereotypes.
Just a blah type of day. Maybe I will take a nap.

Long time no see old friend

I have to admit that my last post was a very long time ago. I had actually forgotten about this site until someone bitched at me today about not liking something I said here. A little late in the day for that in the first place. I don't really care if they like it or not in the second place. Just a little fuel for the fire at this point. Like what I say or not, no one is going to control what I say or do - especially not by long distance! Oh well, now that I am here I might as well start blogging again. It's been a strange couple of years to say the least. I have been through the ups and downs of life but try to take it all as it comes. I enjoy the good times and make it through the not so good times the best I can. My best isn't always working too good for me. I had a rough spell where I thought seriously about ending it all. I never want to get that depressed again under any circumstances. I will run not walk to the nearest doctor and do something about it even though I hate taking medicine. One thing is for sure, I won't go the way I went last time I was so down. That ended up working OK for about 11 months then the last month was right back to where it all ended before. I was hurt and angry beyond words. I, again, went through all the same things I went through all the other times before. Now it's at the part where it really hurts again. This is where the pain really sets in and the reality of the situation hits home. I don't want or expect anyone to cry for me. Please pray for me, though. While I am not feeling very strong right now I know that this will pass in time. My heart will heal. I will move on older but wiser. At any rate, I will be here more often now that life is settling into a peaceful routine. I have my moments when I am happy in spite of everything and it's those moments I am going to stay focused on and keep looking forward to until the sun breaks through to my heart again. For now I will just watch and wait for the rainbow.