I missed the last two Al-anon meetings and I could feel the difference in my attitude. I was getting more and more sad as time went on. I had little "emergencies" come up that had (IMHO) to be taken care of right away.
We were talking after the meeting about holding someone else responsible for our expectations. How angry we get when those expectations are not met or worse yet met with extreme opposition.
Al-anon is all about US. About letting go of the "responsibility" of controlling someone else's behavior. Learning to accept what IS and dealing with it accordingly. In short, Al-anon teaches you how to live out the serenity prayer.
With Al-anon I have found people who understand what I am thinking and feeling. No one there makes fun of anyone else or criticizes them for saying what is in their heart or mind. Even if they start to ramble on they are saying something they feel they desperately want someone to hear. There is always a pearl to be found if you listen with your heart.
Something happened last night that would have had me up all night upset and sick with worry but not last night. Thanks to the friends I have found and the changed way I look at life it was not a problem at all. I am not perfect by any means. I am a work in progress. I am not perfect but I am getting better. There was a time when I would have handled this situation differently. Thanks to Al-anon I have peace instead of fear.
I am focused on ME. What I need and what I need to do.
Friday, October 2, 2009
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